Tuesday, October 16, 2012 11:07 PM
A realization
This thought just dawned upon me.
I crumble under pressure BUT i would stand back up feeling really satisfied after its all over.
Yes, i always do. Syukran.
When i feel so choked up with emotions within me, i would feel like crying. And lately, i've been feeling it alot at work. I'm thinking about all the workload piling up and i start to panic. Unfortunately, the chn have always bear the brunt of my bingitness (or pekchekness; the feeling whr i want to leave evrything and runaway).
I'm the kinda person who plans everything in order and follow it. When i have many things to do, i have to list it down and do a to-do list before checking it off one by one. So when work starts piling up before i can list it down mentally, i'll breakdown.
I like the pressure but i also hate it. Idk how to explain it. Like when i see the never-ending list of work to be done, i would be enthusiastic to finish it all at once. That feeling of completing it all is just to awesome!
Thus, actually the main point of this point is just to be positive and slowly(but quickly?) Finish up all my work! & when december comes, i'm FREE!!! Insya'allah! ♥