Tuesday, October 19, 2010 8:51 PM
All time low
Diz could jolly well be the period of time I will hate the most.
One moment I'm happy, the next I'm all grouchy, and the next I'm emo-ing by myself.
Dere's too many emotional baggages in my mind.
It seems like dere's too much things weighin on my mind, and yet dere's nth.
Idk how to explain diz feeling.
I noe I've been waiting soo long for diz time to come last mth coz of exams and all, but now wad happen?
It came, and it's goin away into November already.
Smth is juz unsettling in my heart, my mind, and perhaps my soul.
I noe, it sounds so cliche but yes, dat's precisely wad I feels.
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I noe I wan to be a better person; internally and externally.
I wan to be able to feel good about myself without having to compromise anything at all.
My iman is getting waaay too low already.
Maybe Most probably, dat's the cause of diz unsettling feeling frm within, like smth juz doesn't fit.
I need to do smth about it and not juz ramble on here.
But Idk whr to start!
I'm comtemplating goin for those religious classes (dere's alot in all the mosques!) but I dare not go alone.
idk la, i juz noe dat i gotta do smth abt it soon.